I'm not alone

I've been in a lower than usual place lately. Kinda feeling sorry for myself and not really doing anything about it. Certainly I can and have been putting up a strong front, those closest to me being the only ones that can see past it. But I have been hurting, a lot, and little things and not so little things have been wearing and eating away at me spiritually. I've forgotten my outlet, my spirit, my drive. I was letting myself sink further and further into a hole that wasn't my fault, but didn't stop from grabbing a shovel to help. I was seeing only one set of footprints in the sand, and forgot that they weren't mine.

But today, I felt that spark, that light that I have been ignoring for so long. I know I have been ignoring it because I know that it is never absent. He is with me and I forgot that. I'm going to start making some baby steps in many different parts of my life. I wont say exactly what those steps are because I need to do this for me, without either the encouragement or subtle pessimistic remarks that usually accompany journeys such as these. I only ask that you pray. Pray that my spirit rekindles that flame, that torch that is my soul. We easily forget that we are not alone, ever. I let myself forget that and wallow in self pity, not doing anything to help myself. I will succeed. I will be saved. I will not bury myself in the sands of grief and negativity. My voice will be heard and it will be grand!

I will see both sets of footprints in the sand again, but for now, I'll be happily carried till I can put my feet down again.